I hate being so busy that I can't write! I hate that there seems to be far too few hours in my day to accomplish all that must be done! I despise that all my deep thoughts are forced to share time with laundry, grocery shopping, house cleaning, bill paying, dropping off kids, picking up sick kids, calling and waiting on hold for child support services, standing in line at the DMV, cooking, homework, study and driving in rush hour traffic. Oh sure I get on Facebook, but Facebook requires little or no thought. To post some random bit of nonsense that pops into my head, or to click through at 4 per second, the pics your friends posted of the party you weren't invited to is effortless. I love keeping up with friends and sharing pieces of my life with them but what really satisfies me is writing.
I love writing about the things that wrap themselves around my bones and hold me captive till I've purged them through the written word. I've got a subject I've been wanting to write for some years and now is when I really need to write it. To write it tho I need solitude. No interruptions! So when will I find, no, make the time to do so? I don't know? Until that time arrives when I've vested all my enemies and have freed myself from responsibility or at least stolen freedom temporarily, I'll write a rant about not writing.
3 comments:
Love the pic! I enjoy hearing your voice. This is a good example for a question I have.
When you write this, what kind of feedback are you looking for? Are you looking for people to solve your problem, try to change your outlook, or simply for acceptance of your work and enjoyment by others?
This may not be the best example because it is your rant, not a piece you have spent alot of time on.
But, I get frustrated when I spend a lot of time writing something, and somewhere in there is exposed a little bit of my broken self, and then people want to comment on how to 'fix me'. I get that feedback all the time! When I write, I'm looking for whether or not they enjoyed it. Maybe the answer is: When your friends read your writing, they can't take you out of the picture and it can affect their enjoyment. What if Tom Clancy was my best friend? Would I read his stuff and say, "Ha! I remember that about you, you big goober!"
Sorry about the long comment, I just woke up.
he he he... no worries Matt, I understand your feelings. I think our relationship with others will most certainly influence how they read what we write. You and I are much alike in that we write what we're feeling. It's almost impossible to disconnect completely who and what we are from our writing. Your science fiction work is tho the least likely to draw comparisons to your real life.
I never have a preconceived idea of what kind of feedback I want. I like a piece I write to give others an alternate way of seeing something. Or understand where I'm coming from. Maybe the way we write can on a sub-conscience be asking the reader to help us. Or they know you and assume you're asking for answers to questions posed. Okay... now I'm rambling. ;) he he he
Sunny, I totally get this entry. You are right in that you have to make yourself take the time to expunge the writing that is dying to get out of you. I'm wrestling with the very same thing right now. For me, with this recent bout, I've had the solitude and the time, and I just can't wrangle my "itty bitty commitees" long enough for them to shut up and let me write. I hope you're able to steal some freedom to write, and soon!
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