Courageous & Brave

Blinded by fear seeing no way out, slowly walk, certainly forward. Warm clay, easy to manipulate into what its' master wants. Like hoarfrost in winter their eyes see beauty but beneath lies destruction and waste.

Words make my ears bleed as my heart rises to my throat and it throws profanity about. It rushes from my mouth like a cold north wind. The tears that fall freeze as iced breath cracks the glass. I reach for one and then another. My hand, suspended in the nothingness, my fingers are white and numb in the cold of the dark night.

The apron strings are tied so tight that there is no breath, without them it all falls apart. Drowning, suffocated and crushed. Screams for help frighten the delicate away.

Cowards and cravens dressed for battle, beckon the gentle warrior to fight for them, with insatiable appetites greedy gluttons veraciously devour the spoils and with the fleshy parts of lust fresh between their teeth they beg for more.

Running toward the light, tripping and falling in the tangled web of lies, empty words and pompous philosophy of logic.

Seeing nothing, feeling everything, smell the rain, hear the light. He has freed us all, we are prisoners no more.

~Garden of Shadows: Lunebleu

Pandora's Box

Pandora's box hid from me.
Packed away so nice and neat.
Stored it away.
He pulled it out.
Opened them one by one.
Memories attached to painful emotions.
All of them flying about.
Floating around the red lit room, like feathers from a pillow fight.

A mess to clean up.
Each memory to be gathered and all placed where they belong.
But they are refusing to return.

Promises that can't be kept.
Lies whispered into our own ears.
Wanting it back.
Walking away.
Breath won't come.

"Good-bye" never passed the lips.
"Good-bye" was what was heard.

The quiet sounds leave room for the noise of a foolishly beating heart.
The mind knows and trusts in reason.
Fury of the lost screams it's voice to silence.
Turn the volume up on ambient sounds.
Senseless chatter.
Click clack, switching stations.
Thump thud, changing lanes.
Listen to it.
Slow and deep, in and out.
The dark day soon arrives.
Running but going no where.
Trying to escape but already there.
Fast Forward to the future.
Turn the page.
Not even sweet intoxication will wash away the pain.

When I close my eyes

I feel his breath on my face...

Loneliness wraps it's self around my finger.
Emptiness now rest where the diamond once sat.
Platinum rings float upon salty waters.
I put my heart in a box and gave it back.
Hurt raises it's voice and curses burn my eyes.
Shards of his pain and jagged pieces of promises cut deep.
We bleed.
I dare not breath.
If I hold it there it won't disappear.
Fist clenched around my heart.
Love still believes.
Hope still endures.
Faith still grows.

frozen diamonds~elenadudina

In Darkness In Light

They placed upon her a scarlet letter. Carved it upon her back. Ignorance and silence gave them power to feel justified. The wounds were deep, the pain never really went away. Like an unset break, crooked they remain.

The push and pull of wanting not, tore upon her mind. Only one true voice to hear drowned out by dark nights.

Expectations tho realized by others went unfulfilled for her. Denying bitterness and resentment she embraced the love that bloomed in gardens filled with wisdom from above. Rain would come and darkness fall bringing grief that consumed like tides, swallowing the peace, pulling it down beneath the light.

Move right then left, up then down she could not catch her breath. Many reach to save her but she could not hear them call.

Trapped by circumstance, held by love of responsibility. She became more than she once was. Never leaving where she is she was carried far from where she was. Her heart big enough to love much more. The air she breaths is fresh.

Sitting at the station, waiting for the next life to come. Stepping off the line making her way back to where she always belonged. The hard road taught her, showed her, took her to places she needed to see to find her way to the place she always wished she could be.

Nearing the crest she smiled and embraced the horizon that came into view. She was not alone, she was not weak, fear no longer held her down. She saw the joy that had been set before her.

Photo credit: In darkness in light by:Furtive Lungs

Lost

At one point or another every one of us have risen from our pillow and thought, "This is not my life. It was never supposed to be this way. It's not what I planned or worked so hard to achieve." Yet it is the life we are living. Knowledge and understanding have educated us to the reality that THIS is not the real life. The life we need and want is yet to come. Yet we continue to be surprised when we are disappointed and our hopes dashed.

Ahhh the peace that will come when we really relinquish the hold we have on our ideals of having the life we wanted on this, the dark side of forever.

PhotoCredit:'Lost' by iNeedChemicalX